Have you ever heard about Schrodinger's Cat?
It's a quantum mechanics theory. Basically a cat is stuffed in a bag with a lethal device that, when a button is pressed outside the bag, has a 50/50 chance of killing the cat (and everything is safe-guarded and cat-proofed, blah, blah, blah). You press the button to activate the device. And here's the thing:
Before you open the bag, the state of the cat is neither alive nor dead (or 100% alive and also 100% dead, which is a fun little paradox to try and get your head around). The cat will remain in this limbo state until you open the bag and determine the cat's reality.
That's kind of how I feel about stand up comedy right now.
I really enjoy the time that I'm on stage. But, since I don't perform all that often lately, I'm never entirely sure how the evening is going to go. The set could be great or it could suck. So, I usually end up perserverating for the whole day leading up to the set, dwelling on how it could all go horribly wrong. Because there is a 100% chance that the set could go well and a 100% chance that it could really suck. And I won't get a chance to determine my reality until I get onstage.
Tonight's show went pretty well, but I lost most of the day worrying over the set. Watching old DVDs of sets. Making notes about what I want to do differently.
Mr. Scoop says I'll perseverate less if I book more shows and work more frequently.
He's right, of course.
In the meantime, here's a site that puts the fate of Schrodinger's Cat in your hands:
The Interactive Schrodinger's Cat